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Monday, October 19, 2009

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In your shoes
it'S irritating when one is talking and the other is busy with something else. Well, things change. I finally understand. Cos I'm in his shoes now.

I'm seeing some light from afar. Step by step towards it. Much time had been wasted in the past but i guess it's not too late. Will I be able to move out from comfort Zone and see a breakthrough? Can I overcome my inner struggles? I know myself well that my Determination is low and usually very short life span. Yet I am tired of being a Sunday christian. Seeking for more answers and I know He will tell me all. Sacrifices have to be made to see a difference. I shall try to do something different this time round.

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Monday, August 17, 2009

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Speaking to my heart

Romans 1: 29 - 32

"They are full of envy, murder, strife, deceit and malice. They are gossips, slanders, God-haters, insolent, arrogant and boastful; they invent ways of doing evil; they disobey their parents; they are senseless, faithless, heartless, ruthless. Although they know God's righteous decree that those who do such things deserve death, they do not only continue to do these very things but also approve of those who practise them."

These phrases seem over-powering; the choice of words used are harsh but truly, it reflects the reality of mankinds. Nobody would dare proclaim they commit none from the ones mentioned.

I aint saying that I've committed all of the above! To some, yes, I admit. It hit me that I have actually neglected the basics of living like a Christian. It's been a long time since I feel like one. Bad protrayal. Once again, I feel like an infant.

The lack of understanding puts us in the similar deja vu situation. Don't you think a solution is needed? Go Science lab get one? or Optical shop?

Labels: Food to feed my soul, God, purple him

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Tuesday, March 10, 2009

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Daily Devotion
Many of times we are tempted to hold on to our "things, thinking that they can provide security for us at that moment. However, things change and the very things that we hold on to, by refusing to surrender to God will be lost anyway. The only safe place for the things we love most is in the hands of God.

Certainly, God does want to bless us with material things as well, but it will be Him whom we are seeking when these things come, not the things themselves. Many today are seeking God for what He can do for them, instead of seeking God, asking what they can do for Him.

Seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all the things shall be unto you.

Applicable.

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Squeaks` @* 12:13 AM

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Tuesday, October 21, 2008

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Food for our mind

Proverbs 26:24-26 (AMP):
24 He who hates pretends with his lips, but stores up deceit within himself.25 When he speaks kindly, do not trust him, for seven abominations are in his heart. 26 Though his hatred covers itself with guile, his wickedness shall be shown openly before the assembly.

This clearly tells us that a person, whose lips are filled with flowery words yet inwardly deceitful, will eventually be exposed. They are hypocrites who do not mean what they say. More often than not, they plot against people to achieve their goals and for their own advantages.

Verse 25 warns not to trust these deceitful people as they have seven abominations in their hearts.

1) Proud look
2) Lying tongue
3) Murder
4) A heart that devises wicked thoughts
5) Executing the wicked thoughts through actions
6) A false witness
a. Gossip is the 2nd cousin to this sin, as stories are retold to others not on the basis of truth
7) Sowing discord among believers
a. We are to love one another

While God hates the first 6 sins, he wants us to practice loving for one another. When these come in place, they become abominations in the eyes of God.

Let us be set free from sins. Sins and wickedness will eventually be brought to light as stated in Verse 26.
Numbers 32:23b: "..... ye have sinned against the LORD: and be sure your sin will find you out."
The journey is harsh and I am weak. I do not wish to see myself sinking deeper and deeper into the ocean.

Labels: God, Life, Simple Life

Squeaks` @* 11:09 PM

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Monday, July 14, 2008

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Stay Strong Ruth! I can do it alone with God's strength!

STop being a pessimist!

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Tuesday, July 8, 2008

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Cynically-me

The aftermath of the incident is too overwhelming for a little girl to handle. Deep within me, I am screaming aloud, desperately crying out for help. Anyway, I aint trying to gain pity or understanding by typing this entry.
Perhaps, many have forgotten about the incident, many didn't even care in the first place. Yet, the incident still lingers in me. I know it is silly since it is impossible to turn back time and change it. Ever since the day, everything has changed. I can no longer be who I used to be, I can no longer go back to where I belonged, I can no longer do what I used to love most, we are no longer how we used to be.

It is probably due to the guilt in me that I still can't forget about it. I am returning to my old behavior, being cynically-me. This is really bad. I am linking everything together. My pessimistic nature is telling me that people are ostracizing me. I guess I am just being cynical. Yb always says I think too much and often, the negative side. My mum tells me that as well. I should occupy my mind with work! Yet, I am too free at the moment. Come on.... Let the phone rings. More interviews.....

I do not want to filter my thoughts. Whatever comes to my mind whatever I type.

I have let my Precious Father down. I am thinking too much about my own needs. Indeed, I am disgusted with myself at times. It's time to change my perceptions. Purposeful life is more than fulfilling my needs and wants, it is about fulfilling Our Creator's purpose. I seek for forgiveness.

Once again, it hit me. In fact, it hit me twice in 2 days. One was Sunday and another on Monday. Whenever it happens, I guess the one who suffers as much is him. I am allowing external factors to come between us, causing destruction and damage that are detrimental.

Can I drop this baggage at the next stop?

As I was typing this entry, I wonder what kinds of thoughts would be triggered? How many people will get turn off by this? Very much that I do not want anymore of such thing to happen, I need to let these out of my chest.

Labels: Cynical, God, Hybrid, random rambling

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Tuesday, June 24, 2008

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Lord I did Your will.
It didnt turn out well. However, I was still glad I did it. This was definitely not something I could do without His strength. *Tearing. So hurt*

I was supposed to go for an assessment this morning but I gave it a miss as I wasn't feeling too well. I tried to give the person-in-charge a call to inform that I would not be going, but no answer from the other side of the line. That goes my job in Loreal.

There will definitely be other doors for me. I must stay patient as I await for the best to come. Life is a test and a trust. This is a test to see my faith in Him. Despite saying so, I must cherish my chance as well! On a lighter note, another company called me up and an interview was secured. Praise the Lord.

Labels: Cheer, God, job

Squeaks` @* 12:52 PM

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Wednesday, February 13, 2008

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Liquidated training, ever since that day

Crunchy night

Cheesey morning

What can I ask for? Be contented

Leaving the bag behind
What a relief

What do I exactly want in life?
Good grades? money? reputation? recognition? promising future?
Even if I've got all the things I ever wish for, happiness will come?
I would most probably want more
Be contented
Stop looking over the fence and be envious
When in fact, urs has been coveted by many

Be thankful
God, open my eyes to see
The beautiful blessings

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Squeaks` @* 10:26 AM

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Tuesday, January 15, 2008

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Not pinning on any hopes or miracles.

Things usually turn out well cos God is in control
Putting my faith in Him.

What appears to the truth might not be the truth
I see with my eyes, I listen with my ears
Yet, the truth still lies with the beholder
I wish it will not turn out what I see it to be

Well well..
Back to my fyp now.
Lunching soon I guess.

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Squeaks` @* 11:15 AM

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Monday, December 10, 2007

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I know I am not alone anymore..
God is in the house!
He brought along friends and family members as well.
Thank you, Father

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Friday, November 30, 2007

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I thank God for sending her to me..
She never fail to encourage me

On the downside, I just stepped on my phone. Super depressed..
This sudden analogy came to me.
How many times God tried to talk to me, I just simply ignored and stepped on His words. Did I ever feel painful when I did that? Did I ever care that God was hurt?

I never. Then why Shd I ever be bothered abt this phone when it is of so little value as compared to GOd?
Stop chasing after material stuff... seek for the intangible love of God.

I feel better now.. But i am definitely going down to the Service Centre tml.

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Friday, September 7, 2007

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Evan Almighty

Many of you might think that it's just another comedy.

Yet.. It changed my life perspective as well as my christian faith.

Evan almighty is, in fact, a sequel to the 2003 film, Bruce Almighty.

Newly elected to Congress, moved to a new gigantic house and a great wonderful family with 3 kids and a beautiful wife. How envious and perfect can it be?

How many people out there are willing to give up these things and listen to the tiny voice of God?

Evan didnt believe in the calling initially. But, when all the miracles happened, he began to start the work of God- to build the ARK

He got suspended from work after he told everyone that GOd asked him to build an Ark. His wife and 3 kids left for her mother's place upon seeing the news report, leaving him to build the Ark alone.

Weeks later, God appeared to Evan's wife. This was what he said: " God does not give things, He gives the opportunity to get things". For example: God does not give family togetherness, He gives the opportunity for families to get together.

So, she, together with the 3 kids returned and joined Evan to complete the Ark.

The day finally came. Evan told the people to get onboard the Ark but nobody listened. "Is God really going to send down flood?" If there's the case, why God wanna destroy the world? Evan did not but did as what God had told him to do. Everything God does, He meant good for His people.

True enough, God loves His children. He did not send down floods, but He was, in fact, trying to save the people. The poorly built dam burst. Down came the flood.

Everyone was saved by the Ark.

Very often, people question the works of God. Why did God want me to forego this career? Why did not God bless me with a job in XXX (some well-known) company? Why Why Why

God has His own plans. Everything He does, they are All for our own good. Listen and obey. Who has expected the dam to burst and cause flood? Nobody except God.

P.S There's another meaning to ARk
Acts of Random Kindness

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Friday, July 13, 2007

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Irritated

Everything is just screwed up
Got up from the wrong side of bed
Confused. Dont know what I want
Problems. Endless problems.
Wanna get away
Pissed off

Quantity doesnt mean quality
I dont have to show u my ability by slogging long hrs.
It's dumb
I do what I am supposed to do and I finish them within the given time frame
It's up to you to believe
My conscience is clear
See things beyond your sight
Think beyond your limits
Once again, quantity doesnt mean quality
Long hrs in office simply means inefficiency. More time to finish what is supposed to be done. Waste of resources. Seriously
Turns me off
Trying too hard to impress others
Pushing jobs to others
"What have you done?"
pretend pretend pretend

-Ruth-

Labels: Cheer, Everything, Family, Friends, God, HW, Life, Mr E, Work

Squeaks` @* 8:51 AM

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Tuesday, June 19, 2007

No Greater Love

1) A loving father provides

2) A loving father is fair

3) A loving father loves without condition- There is no such thing as "If love", "Because love" and "Anyhow love".

4) A loving father restores- restoration needs a repentant heart and true repentance does not come along with any excuses ( NO but, No if). In other words, when the child asks for forgiveness with a true repentant heart, the father will restore

5) A loving father sacrifies- No greater love than this; that he lay his life for us.

If u happen to be a father, use this to gauge how u fair as a father.

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