Tuesday, 11th March 2008 (5 more days to Cheerobics2008, NTU ACES are you ready?)
As the days approaches, the excitement in me is bewildering. All the sweats and agonies will prove to be deserving becos we shall claim victory on that day so as not to let our ACES fans down.
Not just for ourselves, it's for our school, Src, godmother, godfathers, coach, fans, friends and loved ones. The ones who have been supporting us all these while.
F is the word, the key to success. Not F for Fear but F for Faith. Uncalled-for jittery is not needed, we must be confident. * i am trying to convince myself on this as well!! i tend to lose focus and get nervous when the music starts playing or when there's timing* Let's give support to one another. Just believe in yourself and fellow teammates. Encouragement is greatly appreciated. Nobody likes to fail stunts. He/she wouldn't wanna look like a loser in front of all the audience, would he/she? I strongly ascertain that everybody will and have put in their best. Jiayou.
Hmm, actually, the above wasnt what I planned to blog abt. Haha. This just came to my mind out of sudden, so I decided to pen, no i mean type them out.
Back to my original intended topic-- Lessons! Tuesday is my longest day out of my 2-days week. My day starts from 9:30am ~ 6:30pm. There's a 2 hrs lunch break in between though. 3 hrs seminar followed by another 4 hrs seminar is torturing. Perhaps, to the working class and IA students, it's a norm but not for me! In consideration that I slept at 5am the previous night, it just added on to my agony. I was totally sleepyheaded during the lessons. The morning seminar class wasnt that bad. I was kinda sleepy but managed to stay awake. Not for the afternoon seminar class though as I succumbed to the "sleepy devil" and went off to dreamland. I slept for almost 90% of the lesson. I wasted my time there as nothing was being absorbed. Worse still, I woke up with a headache. My prediction for the headache was due to the consequence of withdrawing from caffeine?
Popped down 2 panadols as the throbbing pain didnt subside. Hmm. I never like to pop pills unnecessary as I do not want to be dependent on medications. More will be required as I get immune to these pills. Just like caffeine, red bull etc...
*Sweet thing you did was not left unnoticed. Thank you... Apology for my grumbling abt the pain* This was written for you. Eh. You shd know that I am referring to you right. Clue: pls store inside your little brain. heheee
Training ended rather early, there's sufficient time for supper!
*Lack of slp on Tuesday and too much slp on Wednesday* Zhi Ran Xing, my alarms were abandoned finally. Slept till 12pm. Ate abit, did abit of stuff and slept again. *come on, give R a little slack for the day* Tonight I shall train hard, work hard as well!!!... Retail project meeting this Friday. Gotta do some preparation.
Happy Ruth, at least till 6pm? hahah.. Wonder what's in store for me tonight. God, gives a pair of filtering ears. Thank you!
I need to confess! When I woke up this morning, I was comtemplating if i should miss church service todae. I've got reasons for this "evil tot". Anyway, thank God I didnt. Sunday's sermon is perhaps my only source of God's words for the entire week. Thus, it should not be missed.
The sermon was superb. It never fail to lift up my weary spirit. My faith was called forth once again and I was reminded that God will always be there to help. We must believe in Him. I want more and more of You, Lord. Many of time, I chose to walk my own path. No point complaining, bitching, whining and etc, cos man cant do anything to solve those problems. Look to God for guidance----> I must commit this to memory!
I love Sundays!! However, it's also my slping day as well. That's bad. I always doze off after my lunch... Zzzzzzzzzzz all the way until evening time. Hahaaa..
Today is exactly one week away from the actual competition. After 16 March 2008, no longer will I be in the team, at least not as a player. I guess everything comes to a closure eventually Yet, my passion remains. There're still so much more that I want to achieve. -Unfinished journey- Being a cheerleader, it's more than just looking good. In fact, cheerleaders shd be all-rounders. Good in gymnastics, dance, cheer, stunts and so on. Have we been focusing too much on just a few aspects. Lately, I've been into gymnastics especially FHS (Front Hand Spring). *Perhaps due to somebody's influence* Not that I've put in alot of efforts in my FHS, I did try to squeeze out time to practise it. However, I've yet done a nice FHS on the roll mat by myself. "Why cant I just get it right?" "It has been so long since I started practising it, why such a slow progress?" Why I just dont have the talent for gymnastics"....... 7 more days. Will I be able to achieve it by that date?
I did not really train hard enuff in the past. I merely did what I was told to and nothing extra. Words are cheap but no actions done. Always grumbling, comparing... Yet not much was done to improve myself. When I finally realised it, time out for me. Perhaps I may not have started well nor done well during the process, the least I can hope for now is to finish it well. I do not want to regret.
Only 7 more days. Nobody knows what's going to happen after this day. We shd cherish these last 7 days. Fate has brought us together. We may not be exactly very bonded (like a family), we are still a team. No matter what, my cheerleading friends have definitely left an impact in my life. Good or bad. I decide. Hahaa ACES will stay with me forever.
On a side note, I just wish that training can be less stressful. Be professional I guess. I am rather sick and tired of having to tolerate others' temper. Why is there a need for some much emotions to run abt during training? Emo? temper?
Cheerleading is a team sports- we do not run the show individually. We do not do things based on emotions. It's so not professional. It just goes to show how insensible that person is. Things are just getting on my nerves. Breaking down soon if I continue to keep it to myself. I do not mean to hurt or to anger anione in the process. I Just need to let it out. I wanna enjoy my last 7 days of cheerleading. I want to be happy. I will simply ignore things tt go against my desire. Ruth wants to be happy!
Anyway, I had a satisfying meal at Jp just now with people whom I feel comfortable with. Then I spent another 2 to 3 hrs toking abt life? abt cheer? abt people? abt life again? Difference in perceptions as usual.
My 1st cheerobics, 2006
Japan Competition, 2007
Cheerobics, 2008
My final cheerobics...