Vesak Day- 31st May 07
Was out with Mr XX today. Prepared french toasts for him, thinking he must be very hungry after his training. To my disappointment, he had some bread before he came to meet me.
Couldnt make up our minds on what and where to eat. Hawker food? Macs (tempted by an ad I saw at the bus stop)? Hans? In the end, we settled for hawker food. Hokkien mee for me and luo mee (my han yu pin yin is pretty lousy. Most probably, I've spelled it wrongly) for him. The stall auntie who serviced him looks like Malay but spoke mandarin to him.. hmm. so Malay or Chinese? dunnoe. haha
Our or rather my initial plan was to chill at some coffee house not shop k cos I wanna do some studying for my astro exam. All packed!! So we ended up buying smoothies from this fruit juice shop "BoOSt". This was our second time patronising the shop. It claims to be low fat, healthy.. Gers shd go for it.. You wont feel guilty even if u gulp down the whole big cup.
I turned in kinda early tt night. Slight headache. Lately in the nite, something funny took place. Mr XX called. I was still in a state of unconciousness when I picked up the call. I kept telling him I've lost my hp. "Then what are u using now?" he asked. "I took out my SIM card and before I know it the hp is gone. I am using another phone now." I replied. hahaa.. the conversation went on. BUT, all these aint true. These were what I dreamt b4 the call came in. I mistook my dream as reality. Onli to realise it this morning that I was sprouting nonsense last night. Haha.
-Ruth-Labels: HW
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Training- 30th May 07
It was one of the rare occasions that I missed training. An unanticipated incident happened. I was stunned upon hearing this awful peice of news from Agnes. Not too sure abt the seriousness as I wasnt there to witness it. Just hope she's feeling better. *I will pray for your recovery gal*. Rest well
Being out of action is one of the worse thing that can happen to a flyer. My back was injuried once and I had to rest for a period of time. Though it was only one week plus, I still felt dejected as I couldnt join them for training. It is distressing to watch others train and progress while you cant do anithing. However, it can be a blessing in disguise. It is the best time to rest and think what you realli want and achieve in cheer. It also acts as a motivation to strive even harder when ready to be back in action for training. Remember "determination MAX." It's not easy but still, it's possible.
This coming semester will be my final year. Been thinking if I shd continue with cheer. My results aint fantastic, thus wanna focus on more studies. But, my passion for cheer is still burning. I love it and never regret joining cheer. *Though my grades suffer as a result* 4 competitions in total. 1 StreetRock, 2 Cheerobics and 1 international competition. These are more than what I could ever ask for. Right now, it is more than trainin for own improvement, there are other respinsibilites that I need to tk up. Been profoundly troubled with my own problems for the past few days, I regret to say that I wasnt really very focused during trainings. I apologise for not doing my part well and I am indeed remorseful abt it.
Manx. cant go for tonight gym's training as well as next monday's training. sad sad. Damn opps i mean realli guilty.. hehee..
Looking forward to Sat's training.
-Ruth-
keep the cheer flame burningLabels: Cheer
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Wednesday, May 30, 2007
"I didn't know I was looking for love until I found you."Labels: HW
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Hello Mr Purpose. Are you inside me? Where are u?
A day in Ruth's life goes: Wake up at 615am, leave home @ 7am, work, lunch, off work, training, supper..... * Why I still put on weight when I m so busy everyday*
Too many cheerleading routines end up making my life a routine as well... ahhaa...* come on luff, it's a joke* BOooooOooo
Kinda sick of this mundane lifestyle. Argh... I need excitement!! New purpose!!
At least, i see a public holiday approaching. haha.. But, it is crawling too slowly... faster faster.. hmm. On second thot, so what if it comes, what's my plan for the day?
Not just one but many question marks..
haha. sound like I'm in chirpy mood?!?! Finally, a more light-hearted and less pessimistic entry right?!? hmmm.. . . . .
-Ruth-
Back to basics: Learn to smile
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Patience
"Patience is a virtue" I believe many have heard of this phrase. I must admit I am one person with little patience. I simply hate waiting for bus, train, friends, lesson to start, food..etc.. Maybe that's why I am never early. I dun wanna wait (oh no... my friends are going to kill).
"I want it now means now"--> this has been my way of life. But, lately, I realised things dont always work in this manner.
Recently, there's smthing I really desire to have. No matter how hard I pursue that "thing", I still failed to capture it. Disheartened and demoralised as I may be, I must be patience and press on. As long as I continue to put in effort, I believe God will answer my prayer.
When you finally attain the thing you've been yearning for, never forget to cherish it.
-Ruth-Labels: HW
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Tuesday, May 29, 2007
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Thoughts
"If you love that person, you would want him to be happy" That's the reason why I've let go. It was a painful decision but i really do not want to exert pressure on him animore.
No calls, no sms. Nothing. Each time I think abt it, no tears flow down my cheeks, but my heart is bleeding. The pain is agonizing and I wonder how long I can endure it.
M I still pinning for hopes that he might call me? or sms me? No No.. I shdnt be doing so.
I may have let go but yet to set myself free.
-Ruth-Labels: HW
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Updates abt my weekends
I was late again! I wouldnt have been so late if not for the fact tt i overslept and missed my stop. To make things worse, the performance venue aint near the bus stop. ZZzzzzzzzzzz
Without catching my breath, we started our warm-up once I got there. No time to lose as some changes had to made *panting plus half-awake*
Wonder if I shd say this out. All I can say is that our performance on that day was pretty "entertaining" . U see things that u would never see in our normal routine. hahaa.. We witnessed the heart-stabbing sight of self-smashing specs. Not forgetting, a legendary X X as well. Have a trivia page for such incidents? hahaa.. Kidding.
My heart rejoice upon seeing the improvement of the juniors as well as their enthusiasm in cheer. They are doing their basics prettty well. Near 100% hit-rate. :) They even tried 2-2-1 on tt day. Yeah. Progess~.. All the gers (seniors and juniors) had the opportunity to be at top as well as being a mid-tier. Cool. Role-switching is kinda fun at times.
Supposed to go for Unisus steamboat gathering but I was too tired. Went JP instead for dinner with some of the juniors-JY, Jessica & Rina. Headed back home after that.
It's Sunday again.. God's day.. The night before, I've already made up my mind to go for service. Was realli determined to execute it. However, I just didnt feel like doing anything after what happened on the fateful night. "Why must these ill-fated chain of circumstances befall on us?" Why.........!.!.!.!. "Why do we always go thru them?" It has come to a pt whereby I do not know what to do next. My mum is rather affected by it as well. She loves me and I know she wouldnt bear to see me in this miserable state.
Felt much better after a 40 mins run round my neighbourhood. The scorching sun did help to clear my mind a bit. Meet up with the 43 peeps today. * Simply cant stay at home and let my imaginations go wild* I'm glad to have them as friends. Truely, they r friends whom I can depend on when in need. Tks gals...........
-Ruth-
pressing on
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Monday, May 28, 2007
You were everything that i wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be but we lost it
When you left, I lost a part of me
A sudden awareness of something hollow and empty abt my life
I am afraid to walk this road alone
Yet, I know I have to....
I guess both have tried
We loved each other
But, happy ending doesnt always come
When can this unbearable awkward silence be broken?
I dont know
I've got no answer..
Leaving everything to God nw
Lord, I submit my life back to You
I admit I am weak
Coming back to You
Good bye Ruth
(fighting to hold back my tears)Labels: HW
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