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Wednesday, April 23, 2008

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Assuming 2 major examinations each year,
having in the educational system for 6 + 4 + 3 +3 = 16 years,
that adds up to a total of 32 major examinations throughout my entire education journey.

That's only for major examinations, not including the mini tests/quizzes etc.

Despite the numerous times I've been through this, I am still freaking stressed!!!!

Argh!

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Squeaks` @* 9:07 AM

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Tuesday, April 22, 2008

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So much for my determination.
I have been surfing.

Anyway, Nanyang Mart doesnt sell map! And I seriously need it for tml's exam.
They do sell globe though and I was, in fact, contemplating if I should purchase it!

On second thought, I would probably look weird bringing a globe into the exam hall.
I gave up that idea in the end.
The next best alternative? Wikipedia will do the job! and I shall print it out.

Nervous. It's the time of the semester once again.

*Over dosage of Ayumi stuff for the day! She's gorgeous*

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Squeaks` @* 5:16 PM

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Friday, April 18, 2008

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Parents, University

Parents, naturally, desire their children to excel in their studies and go far in the future.

Parents, often, pin hopes that their children will get into university.

University, somehow, seems to be the best route to success. To what extent is it true?

People, some, may argue that there're cases where people with low education still succeed in life. In fact, these uneducated yet famous people are doing exceedingly well. List the examples yourself. I shant spoonfeed u guys. However, let's ponder abt the ratio of successful people with high level of education vs successful people with low level of education. True that certificates aint everything, but it's still something. The chances of getting a job is, probably, higher for those graduates cos papers are highly worshipped by Singapore employers? I don't realli agree to paper qualification. It only goes to show how well the person can memorise facts, or how well the person can answer according to the standards by doing more 10 yrs series?

University students, graduates, PHD, Masters... Any big deal?

At least for me, there's a person, whom I highly respect for her intelligence and vast knowledge, was never a University student.

Perceptions still stay. University still sits firmly in its throne.

Last of all, parents, if you want your children to be in University so badly, dont grumble about the cost after they got in. Perhaps, this doesnt post much concern for me now. I had my fair shares to that.

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Squeaks` @* 9:40 AM

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Tuesday, April 15, 2008

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For the past 2 nights, I've been telling myself to stay up and study. This was to make up for the time loss in the afternoon. No reason for me to skip work right? even though it's exam period. (Theoretically, I should have sufficient time to do my exam studying since my exam schedule is one paper per week. Thus, I must to go for work) Having spent my whole evening at SN, I tot I should sacrifice my sleep in the night.

In the end, having read just a few slides, I dozed off. Off i went to the dreamland and I was greeted by the sun before I know it.

My first paper is tomorrow. What's my state of mind at this moment? I would not say I am indifferent, but not as tensed as the previous semesters. The level of stress was beyond words. I could feel my lungs bursting any moment, stress level to the brim. This time round, I am somehow not as jittery, beginning to manage my anxiety better. Not totally stress free though, a leopard can't change its spots, I am still feeling worried.

Guess that's the consequence for not attending lessons. Even if I did go for the lessons, I was usually sleeping. In fact, I am rather guilt-stricken, especially to my BM315 GMS tutor. I didn't do it on purpose, just that I was really really tired. I couldn't control the shutting of my eye lids, they were just too heavy. I do hope that my Tutor would be magnanimous enough to forgive the sleepy little girl. *Crossing my fingers*
On the other hand, I don't give a d*mn about my bm 32* tutor, he's snobbish. I dreaded going for his lessons every Tuesday. Neither do I like the class as well. I wasn't a cooperative student nor a good classmate as well. Hence, I can't complain too much about them as well. Just one last point to add, it was my worst class ever.

Bad bad R! How can I b*tch about others? Well, I really dislike this class. It went beyond my limit of tolerance, I had to let it out. Ok. I do feel bad, to a very very small small extent, for B*tching about them. Not exactly b*tching actually, I am just pouring my sorrows, my unhappiness for this semester.

Ok. What's my point about this entry? I got carried away upon mentioning those bunch of haughty people. I dont behave like this all the time anyway. Just let me do it for once, just let me b*tch.

Time flies and in fact running out. Allowance for procrastination NO More. Time for some serious work to be done.

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Squeaks` @* 7:55 AM

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Tuesday, March 25, 2008

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There's no loser in the sight of God. Shame on Ruth whose faith is so little. God would never make His child a loser in any situation.
*Presentation cleared*
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Still, I didnt participate much during the Q&A session. Makes me wonder if I am an introvert? Probably not, thus my only answer to that is I've got no substance to contribute. 3 years of cheerleading makes me an oddball? autist? Shallow person perhaps.
In a few months time, I would be graduating. This time round, I wont be moving on to another facet of education but into the working society. RGMF, are you ready.... for this harsh reality?
Not that I mind, in fact I am looking forward to the day, just that I am afraid of interviews. Procastinator like me wont be able to survive unless I change for the better. Gotta start looking for a job soon. *wanna be independent* I aint a little girl animore!!!!

In fact, I long past the 21 yrs old mark....

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Squeaks` @* 1:37 PM

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Monday, March 24, 2008

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Wasted my time

Felt so useless; not of help to anyone

Even you dont trust me...

I shall fall back on my beliefs

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Squeaks` @* 8:22 PM

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Wednesday, March 12, 2008

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Tuesday, 11th March 2008
(5 more days to Cheerobics2008, NTU ACES are you ready?)

As the days approaches, the excitement in me is bewildering. All the sweats and agonies will prove to be deserving becos we shall claim victory on that day so as not to let our ACES fans down.

Not just for ourselves, it's for our school, Src, godmother, godfathers, coach, fans, friends and loved ones. The ones who have been supporting us all these while.

F is the word, the key to success. Not F for Fear but F for Faith. Uncalled-for jittery is not needed, we must be confident. * i am trying to convince myself on this as well!! i tend to lose focus and get nervous when the music starts playing or when there's timing* Let's give support to one another. Just believe in yourself and fellow teammates. Encouragement is greatly appreciated. Nobody likes to fail stunts. He/she wouldn't wanna look like a loser in front of all the audience, would he/she? I strongly ascertain that everybody will and have put in their best. Jiayou.

Hmm, actually, the above wasnt what I planned to blog abt. Haha. This just came to my mind out of sudden, so I decided to pen, no i mean type them out.

Back to my original intended topic-- Lessons!
Tuesday is my longest day out of my 2-days week. My day starts from 9:30am ~ 6:30pm. There's a 2 hrs lunch break in between though. 3 hrs seminar followed by another 4 hrs seminar is torturing. Perhaps, to the working class and IA students, it's a norm but not for me! In consideration that I slept at 5am the previous night, it just added on to my agony. I was totally sleepyheaded during the lessons. The morning seminar class wasnt that bad. I was kinda sleepy but managed to stay awake. Not for the afternoon seminar class though as I succumbed to the "sleepy devil" and went off to dreamland. I slept for almost 90% of the lesson. I wasted my time there as nothing was being absorbed. Worse still, I woke up with a headache. My prediction for the headache was due to the consequence of withdrawing from caffeine?

Popped down 2 panadols as the throbbing pain didnt subside. Hmm. I never like to pop pills unnecessary as I do not want to be dependent on medications. More will be required as I get immune to these pills. Just like caffeine, red bull etc...

*Sweet thing you did was not left unnoticed. Thank you... Apology for my grumbling abt the pain* This was written for you. Eh. You shd know that I am referring to you right. Clue: pls store inside your little brain. heheee

Training ended rather early, there's sufficient time for supper!

*Lack of slp on Tuesday and too much slp on Wednesday* Zhi Ran Xing, my alarms were abandoned finally. Slept till 12pm. Ate abit, did abit of stuff and slept again. *come on, give R a little slack for the day* Tonight I shall train hard, work hard as well!!!... Retail project meeting this Friday. Gotta do some preparation.

Happy Ruth, at least till 6pm? hahah.. Wonder what's in store for me tonight. God, gives a pair of filtering ears. Thank you!

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Squeaks` @* 4:50 PM

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Friday, February 1, 2008

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The intensity is rising
Making me suffocate
Tons of work with deadlines drawing soooo sooo near
I'm lagging behind
I needa catch up

Wake up my idea
Do the right thing
Start studying

Guess I shall give surf & sweat a miss

In everything I do, I might not do it well right from the beginning
I can only hope to end them well

Only 1 week, actually less than a week to finish BM321 Formal case presentation! The major project of this module. We were the last to choose the topic. Suck thumb.
Yeah. Project mates, I will get to see you ppl later @ city hall for some awesome cool discussion on the case. Everyday project. Zzzz

I've yet done with my CNY's shopping. Perhaps, I shall just stay at home and watch TV.
Or better still, do project. Hahaa. Actually, goes without saying, I ought to be doing my fyp even on CNY. Not much time left.

Mundane

Yet, another disappointment
Self-deceiving
False belief
Wrong idea
Simply stupid
Baka baka desu
Watashi wa itsumo baka desu
Looking forward to CNY. My family, I am missing

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Squeaks` @* 11:39 AM

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Monday, November 5, 2007

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Yawnzzz.
Despite just waking up from a nap, I am still tired. Gosh. I've been sleeping quite a bit these few days since last week.
どうしょ？
勉強を　しなければ　なります。!!!

Help needed in keeping myself awake as tOns of revisions await me.

Well well. Having my 2nd cup of coffee. Hopefully, it will last me past midnight.

Coming up: 十一月七日　Oral てすとと　HR In-class テストが　ありますね。

Had my listening テスト　today. The conversation was super duper fast, they talked like bullet train, at least to me. It was like crazy. Out of the 3 sections of the listening test, the last section was the worst. I could not understand at least half the conversation. Question marks question marks flew everywhere.
I did my best to stay focused and listen attentively but how can a Singapore mrt win Japan shinkansen? I cant catch up with their speed.

Japanese is indeed my favourite module but a great amplitude of revision/practice is really needed!

I need companion to practise japanese with me.

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Squeaks` @* 7:00 PM

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Friday, October 12, 2007

Why Am I sooo tired?

Considering that I've been slping early (1 to 2am should be early right), I am still soooo sleepy everyday, especially around 10pm +.

A little bit of improvement has been made though. I didnt doze off in class/lects. hahaa

Last night, my plan was to just take a little break/nap before I continue my readings. Before I knew it, it was the next morning. Gosh. I didnt finish my readings!

Concentrate! Focus! Be determined!

Exam is coming to town, I mean NTU.......

Lame

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Squeaks` @* 8:57 AM

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Thursday, October 4, 2007

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HP803 Quiz result is out

37/40
If it's 10%, I get 9.25
If it's 20%, I get 18.5

Not exactly happy with this grade.

Nobody got full marks anyway.

I could have done better.

Strive for better grades in the final exam.

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Squeaks` @* 3:46 PM

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Wednesday, October 3, 2007

Cesim

The Big 5 is running into deficits.
Cummulative shareholder's value is -2.49.

We aint going to trust the market condition anymore, at least to a large extent.
Models taught during lectures aint applicable as well.

We decided to use our own methodology.
Clear directions and strategies are already in place.

The Big 5 shall triumph over others in Round 4. *Praying hard*
We are , in fact, betting everything for this Round.

If things do not work out well, all of us are just going to hug one another and burst into tears.

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Squeaks` @* 8:37 PM

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Nonchalant

I hate afternoon!
Never fail to doze off at that time.
Skipped Bh226 today, hoping to get some work done.
In the end, I took a nap and it wasnt short.
Had to miss training just to finish my BH226 research and fyp.
Hopefully, I will be able to squeeze out some time for my HMJ03 Japanese.
Time to pull up my sock. Though I only have ankle socks.

Exams are drawing near.....

Picture of the day:

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Squeaks` @* 8:30 PM

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Tuesday, September 18, 2007

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Attention: It's already week 6!!

I shd be studying or starting on my revision. Yet, I am not doing so. FOCUS!!

It's gonna be another busy busy week.
At least, smthing to look forward to this weekends. The Taiwan Cheerleaders will be here!
Wonderful opportunity to learn from them. Their skills, their cheerleading culture.
They were the CHamPion for the international cheerleading competition held in Japan.
ACes (TS) clinched a 3rd position. Not too bad either.

Tuesday, 18th Sept 07
FyP meeting @ 1.30pm LWN
Lecture 2.30pm
1st driving lesson @ 8pm----> finally! Been procrastinating. Only managed to get my PDL ytday. Hahaa

Wednesday, 19th Sept 07
CESIM dicussion
Adobe workshop
BH226/ or attend a talk conducted by Spring SIngapore & WDA---> I really would not want to miss the chance of meeting the ppl frm WDA. BUT, on the other hand, there is a in-class assignment to be done. Dilemma~
Training

Thursday, 20th Sept 07
Collection of sponsored drinks
MCQ QUIZ!!!

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Squeaks` @* 10:03 AM

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Thursday, September 13, 2007

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Manx.
Attendance was taken for BH226 seminar ytday!

Argh. Why ytday when I really had impt stuff to attend to and had to excuse myself from class? Cant be bothered. Haha. Just an elective. Just gonne do well during the exam to compensate the loss in marks for class participation.

There'll be a mini Japanese 3 tesuto and HP 803 Are you ok quiz. Prepared? Hahaa
Anyway, I must remember to send out the invoice later!! Need the money to be in~ I couldnt find a letter box at all ytday @ jp...
Can anyone tell me where can I find a letter box in JP?

*Lunch with old man @ Quad*

*I miss my friends!*

*Be focus Ruth!*

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Squeaks` @* 9:11 AM

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Saturday, September 8, 2007

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In-class Exercise = quiz???!!!

Does in-class exercise mean quiz? a better term for quiz so as not to frighten the students?

Gosh. If it is so, I will have 3 quizzes next week.
AB311 strategic management
HP803 Are you ok? Mental Health in Singapore
BH226 Strategic HR & Consulting

Hmm.. Relax Ruth. Nothing to be worried abt.. Not exactly quiz I hope. Haha

Just exercise right? Profs .. Better dont lie thru your teeth!

Kellogg's @ Shape RUn tml~... Performance time: 715am.
What !!??? 715am??~~!!!.. hahaha
It's good to get up early.. isnt it? Heheee

Pleased; worry-free Ruth

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Squeaks` @* 9:37 AM

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Saturday, 8th Sept 07

Today's training will be slightly different cos..

it's exchange day with Denvers!

What a pity that I've got to leave earlier. It's my sweet little niece's birthday today~

Gotta to do some readings b4 training! AB311~ here I come.

Kinda sick of this template... Gonna change it soon.. I mean really soon.. Hahaaa

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Squeaks` @* 9:08 AM

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Tuesday, September 4, 2007

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Tuesday, 4th Sept 2007

Been some time since I had breakfast with him. 15 mins to 11am and we managed to get our Mac breakfast.

Tuesday has been allocated for my FYP. Done with the proposal for our new topic. Our previous topic was about people marketing. A relative new concept. Wanted to give it a try but realised it was kinda difficult to source for information about it. Hence, we dropped that.

Went to SRC gym just now. Saw that "you know who". The moment he saw me, he turned his back and walked off! Haha. * Rolling on the floor* At least I got the gym all to myself

Moving on... with my life and urs

Sometimes, it just occurs to me that relationship is so brittle.

Being together means nothing. It's the future that is so impt to me now.

Dinner with my dear neighbour, MX and SY @ Canteen14. What a coincident that SY's bf's name and Mr E's Chinese name both contain Long! and both are dragonboaters. That's not all. Mr E used to stay in Hall 11 in Year 1 and so is SY's bf right now in his 1st year.

Canteen14 turned into Hall 8 Bonding place. P Clan and A clan members were there. Great to see familiar faces.

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Squeaks` @* 9:24 PM

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Thursday, August 30, 2007

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Life is about making choices. At some point in life, we bound to be confronted with situations whereby something has to be foregone for tt decision made.

Stuck, lost, confused.. Not knowing what is best for me. What will be the outcome/consequences for that decision made?

Most of the time, it is not possible to have the best of both worlds. Hence, we have to make a choice.

Even if a conclusion has been decided upon, it can be somehow difficult to let go of the other choice.

I've come to an agreement with my inner voice. Very much that I wanted to excel in both aspects, I know that is not possible within my capabilities. They are just too much for me to handle at the moment.

When you try to possess as many advantages as possible, you would end up doing well in neither.

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Squeaks` @* 8:06 PM

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Tuesday, August 28, 2007

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Tuesday, 28th August 2007

It's pouring out there right now.

But still, I've got to go for AA102 Accounting II lect. Cant remember anything abt this module. Gosh. Got to start studying it all over again.
Aint I supposed to take it during my year 2?
Yea. Supposedly but it got deferred due to the cheer competition which was held during the exam period.

Gotta leave now.. Ciao~

*Down with flu*

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